Healing Songs

Please NOTE: The 1st CD are NOT happy songs. They are songs that relate to us when we're DOWN. Songs that relate to what happened to us. Songs that may hurt, may trigger, may make you cry to hear. CDs 2 and 3 are happier, "I'm-a-survivor-and-a-fantastic-person-and-you-can't-beat-me-dammit" songs!!! Not all of these will relate to you, neither will you understand how all of them are related. But they are my personal choices, maybe not yours. If you do make them yourself, definitely substitute songs that speak to you in place of ones on my lists that DON'T. :) Mine are also in this order for a reason.. i think they tell a story. There are some religious and some just "I'm happy!" songs, too. :)

Here's what's goin on the CDs.. and even divided into CDs in case you wanna make them, too! :) (all CDs are burned onto 80 minute CD-Rs).

CAUTION!!! THESE LYRICS MAY TRIGGER!!!!

CD ONE: 1 hour 18 minutes

1. Aerosmith - Janie's got a gun

Dum, dum, dum, honey what have you done
Dum, dum, dum, it's the sound of my gun
Dum, dum, dum, honey what have you done
Dum, dum, dum, it's the sound, it's the sound...
Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah....

Janie's Got A Gun
Janie's Got A Gun
Her whole world's come undone
From lookin' straight at the sun
What did her daddy do
What did he put you through

They say when Janie was arrested
They found him underneath a train
But man, he had it comin'
Now that Janie's Got A Gun
She ain't never gonna be the same

Janie's Got A Gun
Janie's Got A Gun
Her dog day's just begun
Now everybody is on the run
Tell me now it's untrue
What did her daddy do

He jacked the little bitty baby
The man has got to be insane
They say the spell that he was under
The lightnin' and the thunder
Knew that someone had to stop the rain

Run away, run away from the pain
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Run away, run away from the pain
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Run away, run away, run, run away

Janie's Got A Gun
Janie's Got A Gun
Her dog day's just begun
Now everybody is on the run
What did her daddy do
It's Janie's last I.O.U.

She had to take him down easy
And put a bullet in his brain
She said 'cause nobody believes me
The man was such a sleeze
He ain't never gonna be the same

Run away, run away from the pain
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Run away, run away, run, run away
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Run away, run away, run, run away

Janie's Got A Gun
Janie's Got A Gun
Janie's Got A Gun
Everybody is on the run

Janie's Got A Gun
Her dog day's just begun
Now everybody's on the run (Honey, honey what's your problem)
'Cause Janie's Got A Gun (Tell me it ain't right)
Janie's Got A Gun (Was it daddys cradle robbin')
Her dog day's just begun (That made you scream at night)
Janie's Got A Gun
Her dog day's just begun
Now everybody's on the run
Janie's Got A Gun

2. Imogen Heap - Useless

I am a mirror, with no reflection
I am a razor, without my blade
I am the daylight when the moons shines no
who will want to make my sandcastle that's already made

I feel so useless, do you

speak to an ear deaf to my voice
look through your fear, you're still blind to my way
I reach to hold you, but I don't feel you there, do you
even I realise I'm here am I just wasting away?
no wasting away
living, inside you play
my dying prayer, sealed in a scream
unwelcome care, and a conscious dream
I am your whore, without a name
I climb to fall, to begin again, to begin again
I climb to fall, suffer, hatred, deceit and pain
anger, regret, loving in vain

I am an arrow, with no direction
my life your tarot, and my picture your fate
I'm your becoming, so I'll always be nothing
if I ever break away from you that day forth,
you'll be living
my hate
oh god help his fate
I'll watch you, watch you suffocate

3. Plumb - Damaged

Dreaming comes so easily
'Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would I know

I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know

There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but I can't go back

4. Fiona Apple - Sullen Girl

Days like this, I don't know what to do with myself
All day -- and all night
I wander the halls along the walls and under my breath
I say to myself
I need fuel -- to take flight --

And there's too much going on
But it's calm under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion

Is that why they call me a sullen girl -- sullen girl
They don't know I used to sail the deep and tranquil sea
but he washed my shore and he took my pearl
And left and empty shell of me

And there's too much going on
But it's clam under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion
It's calm under the waves in the blur of my oblivion

5. Ben Harper - Please bleed

Make me feel like a beggar
Make me feel like a thief
Make me feel like a battle, that cannot end in peace
Make me feel like running, as if I've lost my nerve
Make me feel like crying, tears I don't deserve

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb, I am numb, I am numb

Is this really living
Sometimes it's hard to tell
Or is this a kind of gentler hell
Turn out the lights
And let me stare into your soul
I was born and bled for you old

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb, I am numb, I am numb

Never said thank you
Never said please
Never gave reason to believe
So as it stands I remain on my knees
Good lovers make great enemies

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb, I am numb, I am numb

6. Ben Folds - Carrying cathy

Her window was hung like a painting
She worried it might come to life
She stared for hours
So obsessed was I and self-absorbed that I
Didn't see that she was
Crying

There was always someone carrying
There was always someone carrying
Always someone's carrying Cathy

There were times when I'd find myself saying that:
"Friends, you don't understand"
And she's different when it's just me and her, and I
Closed the door and I tried to hang on and she
Sank into the dark
I was over my head

There was always someone carrying
There was always someone carrying
Always someone's carrying Cathy

We gave you everything
You could have been anything
We gave you everything
You could have done anything

But to imagine a fall
With no one at all to catch you
There'd always been someone..

Then one night she climbed into the picture frame
Out in the frozen air
And out of sight

Woke up sad from this dream I've been having
The last couple nights or so
With her father and brothers we're all at the funeral
Carrying a box through the rain
Then somebody says that it's always been this way

Always someone's carrying
There was always someone carrying
Always someone's carrying Cathy

7. Barenaked Ladies - Off the hook

All around the room your things are placed
And next to you he fills the space
And so it seems your saving grace is only saving face
The pictures of the two of you on holiday, on honeymoon
You thought that he was wanting you,
But he was only wanting you to
Let him off the hook

He was your imaginary friend,
You were partners til the end
Then something bends, and then it breaks, your worst mistake
Accepting enemies on bended knees; a litany of tragedies,
You're vexed, it seems you're hexed and after sex he expects
You'll let him off the hook til
Something that you heard while you were sleeping left you
Shaken while he stirred. When you awaken you will
Make him eat his words right off the hook
Hook and line, every time

The credit card receipts, the dirty sheets
The souvenirs of men who cheat
It all makes sense - with each offense
You wanted to believe him
He could get away with murder one,
And you would clean the smoking gun
With every crime, you bought each line,
But not this time, you'll make him
Eat his words cause

Something that you heard while you were sleeping left you
Shaken while he stirred
When you awaken you will
Make him eat his, make him eat his
Words while he's alone,
Cause you won't be around and
From now on the phone stays off the hook
Hook and line, everytime
Hook and line, everytime

8. Perfect Circle - 3 Libras

Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name in your recollection
Down among a million, say:
Difficult enough to feel a little bit
Disappointed, passed over.
When I've looked right through,
To see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me

Well I threw you the obvious,
Just to see if there's more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy.
Here I am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded
But I see,
See through it all,
See through,
And see you.

So I threw you the obvious
Do you see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy

Well, oh well..
Apparently nothing.
Apparently nothing at all.

You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me at all

9. Barenaked Ladies - Everything old is new again

Learn to lose, it's easier that way
We've paid our dues, but we can't make life pay
All across the world, people going mad
In their mother's cars, the kids are feeling sad
That's how it is, and I'll see you later

Everything old is new again, everything under the sun
Now that I'm back with you again
We hug and we kiss, we sit and make lists
We drink and I bandage your wrists

Wasted youth -- there wasn't much to waste
Down to the bone, and still losing weight
With all the wishing in the world glistening in her eyes
But when I say I love her, she thinks I'm telling lies
Is it all lost? No, we never had it.

Everything old is new again, everything under the sun
All of our fears come true again
Recycle, reuse, resent and refuse
Our parent's ideals and views.

She thinks the afterlife might just be where the action is
With high schools built like prisons,
she can't find a way to live

Moved back home to fill the empty nest
Afraid to roam, in love with second best
While somewhere in the world, she's hosting her own show
Everyone she questions never seems to know
Just who they are and where they are going

Everything old is new again, everything under the sun
Now that I'm without you again
I wake up and eat, I go back to sleep
And let all my nightmares repeat

All across the world, people going mad

10. Peter Gabriel - Here comes the Flood

When the night shows
the signals grow on radios
All the strange things
they come and go, as early warnings
Stranded starfish have no place to hide
still waiting for the swollen Easter tide
There's no point in direction
we cannot even choose a side.

I took the old track
the hollow shoulder, across the waters
On the tall cliffs
they were getting older, sons and daughters
The jaded underworld was riding high
Waves of steel hurled metal at the sky
and as the nail sunk in the cloud,
the rain was warm and soaked the crowd.

Lord, here comes the flood
We'll say goodbye to flesh and blood
If again the seas are silent
in any still alive
It'll be those who gave their island to survive
Drink up, dreamers, you're running dry.

When the flood calls,
You have no home, you have no walls
In the thunder crash
You're a thousand minds, within a flash
Don't be afraid to cry at what you see
The actors gone, there's only you and me
And if we break before the dawn,
they'll use up what we used to be.

Lord, here comes the flood
We'll say goodbye to flesh and blood
If again, the seas are silent
in any still alive
It'll be those who gave their island to survive
Drink up, dreamers, you're running dry.

11. Tracy Chapman - Remember the Tinman

There are locks on the doors
And chains stretched across all the entries to the inside
There's a gate and a fence
And bars to protect from only God knows what lurks outside
Who stole your heart left you with a space
That no one and nothing can fill
Who stole your heart who took it away
Knowing that without it you can't live
Who took away the part so essential to the whole
Left you a hollow body
Skin and bone
What robber what thief who stole your heart and the key

Who stole your heart
The smile from your face
The innocence the light from your eyes
Who stole your heart or did you give it away
And if so then when and why
Who took away the part so essential to the whole
Left you a hollow body
Skin and bone
What robber what thief
Who stole your heart and the key

Now all sentiment is gone
Now you have no trust in no one

Who stole your heart
Did you know but forget the method and moment in time
Was it a trickster using mirrors and sleight of hand
A strong elixir or a potion that you drank
Who hurt your heart
Bruised it in a place
That no one and nothing can heal

You've gone to wizards, princes and magic men
You've gone to witches, the good the bad the indifferent
But still all sentiment is gone
But still you have no trust in no one

If you can tear down the walls
Throw your armor away remove all roadblocks barricades
If you can forget there are bandits and dragons to slay
And don't forget that you defend an empty space
And remember the tinman
Found he had what he thought he lacked
Remember the tinman
Go find your hear and take it back

Who stole your heart
Maybe no one can say
One day you will find it I pray

12. Tori Amos - Silent all these years

Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the Anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that

Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know but nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me you never shut up
Yeah I can hear that

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes I said sometimes I hear my voice and
it's been
here
silent all these years

So you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best pray that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you

My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker do you think it's enough
To get us there

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice and it's been
here
silent all these..

Years go by will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand
Years go by if I'm stripped of my beauty
And the orange clouds raining in my head
Years go by will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left
One more casualty
You know we're too
easy
easy
easy

Well I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
Let's hear what you think of me now
but baby don't look up
The sky is falling

Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
It's your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin' at you
here take hold of my hand
Yeah I can hear them

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
I hear my voice
I hear my voice
And it's been
here
silent all these years
I've been here
silent all these years
Silent all these
Silent all these
years

13. Creed - Wash away those years

She came calling
One early morning
She showed her crown of thorns
She whispered softly
To tell a story
About how she had been wronged
As she lay lifeless
He stole her innocence
And this is how she carried on
Well I guess she closed her eyes
And just imagined everything's alright
But she could not hide her tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
They were sent to wash away those years
My anger's violent
But still I'm silent
When tragedy strikes at home
I know this decadence Is shared by millions
Remember you're not alone
For we have crossed many oceans
And we labor in between
In life there are many quotients
And I hope I find the mean

14. Moby - When it's cold i'd like to die

Where were you when I was lonesome?
Locked away with freezing cold
Someone flying only stolen
I can't tell this light so old

[Refrain:]
I don't want to swim the ocean
I don't want to fight the tide
I don't want to swim forever
When it's cold I'd like to die

What was that my sweet sweet nothing?
I can't hear you through the fog
If I holler let me go
If I falter let me know

[Refrain]

I don't want to swim forever
I don't want to fight the tide
I don't want to swim the ocean
When it's cold I'd like to die

I don't want to swim the ocean
I don't want to fight the tide..

15. Jewel - Absence of Fear

Inside my skin
There is this space...
It twists and turns
It bleeds and aches

Inside my heart
There's an empty room.
It's waiting for lightning;
It's waiting for you

I am wanting, and...
I am needing you here
Inside the absence of fear

Muscles and sinew
Velvet and stone...
This vessel is haunted
It creaks and moans

My bones call to you
In their separate skin.
I make myself translucent
To let you in, for..

I am wanting, and...
I am needing you here
Inside the absence of fear

There is this hunger
This restlessness inside of me
And it knows that you're no stranger,
You're my gravity

My hands will adore you
Through all darkness, and aim
Lay you out in moonlight
And reinvent your name

For I am wanting, and...
I am needing you
To be here...
I need you near...
Inside the absence of fear.

16. Sarah McLachlan - Full of Grace

the winter here's cold, and bitter
it's chilled us to the bone
we haven't seen the sun for weeks
to long too far from home

I feel just like I'm sinking
and I claw for solid ground
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go

if all of the strength and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace
full of grace
my love

so it's better this way, I said
having seen this place before
where everything we said and did
hurts us all the more

its just that we stayed, too long
in the same old sickly skin
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go

if all of the strength
and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace
full of grace
my love

17. Tori - Me & a Gun

5am
Friday morning
Thursday night
far from sleep
I'm still up and driving
can't go home, obviously

So I'll just change direction
cause they'll soon know where I live
And I wanna live
Got a full tank and some chips

It was me
and a gun
and a man on my back
And I sang "holy holy"
as he buttoned down his pants

You can laugh
Its kind of funny
Things you think
Times like these
Like I haven't seen Barbados
so I must get out of this

Yes I wore a slinky red thing
Does that mean I should spread
for you,
your friends
Your father
Mr Ed

It was me
and a gun
and a man on my back
But I haven't seen Barbados
so I must get out of this

And I know what this means
Me and Jesus
'few years back
used to hang
And he said
"it's your choice babe
just remember
I don't think
you'll be back
in 3 days time
so you choose well"

Tell me what�s right
Is it my right
to be on my stomach
in Fred's Seville

It was me
and a gun
and a man on my back
But I haven't seen Barbados
so I must get out of this

And do you know Carolina
Where the biscuits are soft and sweet
These things
go through your head
when there's a man on your back
And you're pushed
flat on your stomach
it's not a classic Cadillac

It was me
and a gun
and a man on my back
But I haven't seen Barbados
so I must get out of this

I haven't seen Barbados
so I must get out of this

CD TWO: 1 hour 18 minutes

1. Our Lady Peace - In Repair

Well it's good to know that you'll be okay
I've been waiting for this
And I'll be there to sit
While you pray
no one's blaming me
I'm not supposed to wait
When they open up your heart...

I have been good
I understood
Like a machine they'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair
The life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair

Lock the door, lock the door
And it's good to know that you'll drive away
From this car crash nightmare
And I'll be there to help you again
There's no danger
We're just killing time again
When they order up new parts

I have been good
I understood
Like a machine they'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair
The life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair

Take this time to figure it out
Know the wire, the fuse, the things that you doubt
The wheels, the air, the metal, the mouth
Something, something, something

I have been good
I understood
Like a machine they'll fix you from the start
I'm in repair
The life that we share
I know that I'll be lost in
But we're always in repair

Take this time to figure it out
The wire, the fuse, the things that you doubt
The wheels, the air, the metal, the mouth
Something, something, something

2. Amy Grant - Ask me

I see her as a little girl hiding in her room
She takes another bath and she sprays her momma's perfume
To try to wipe away the scent he left behind
But it haunts her mind.

You see she's his little rag, nothing more than just a waif
And he's mopping up his need, she is tired and afraid
Maybe she'll find a way through these awful years
to disappear.

Ask me if I think there's a God up in the heaven
Where did He go in the middle of her shame?
Ask me if I think there's a God up in the heavens
I see no mercy and no one down here's naming names
Nobody's naming names.

Now she's looking in the mirror at a lovely woman face
No more frightened little girl, like she's gone without a trace
Still she leaves the light burning in the hall
It's hard to sleep at all.

Still she crawls up in her bed acting quiet as a mouse
Deep inside she's listening for a creaking in the house
But noone's left to harm her, she's finally safe and sound
There's a peace she's found.

Ask her how she knows there's a God up in the heaven
Where did He go in the middle of her shame?
Ask her how she knows there's a God up in the heavens
She said His mercy is bringing her life again.

Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heaven
(How do you know?)
Where did He go in the middle of her shame
(Where did He go?)
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heavens
(How do you know?)
She said his mercy is bringing her life again
She's coming to life again.

He's in the middle of her pain
In the middle of her shame
Mercy brings life
He's in the middle
Mercy in the middle.

So ask me how I know
Ask me how I know, yeah
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heaven
(How do you know?)
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heavens
(How do you know?)
Yeah, ask me how I know
(How do you know?)
Ask me
Ask me
Ask me how I know
(How do you know?)
There's a God up in the heavens
Ask me how I know there's a God up in the heavens.

3. WOW Worship - Shout to the Lord

My Jesus
My saviour
Lord, there is none like you
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of your mighty love

My comfort
My shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath
All that I am
Never cease to worship you

Shout to the Lord
All the earth let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound
Of your name

I sing for joy
At the work of your hands
Forever I�ll love you
Forever I�ll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have
In you

4. Jewel - Barcelona

Barcelona: where the winds all blew
The churches don't have windows
But the graveyards do

Me and my shadow are wrestling again
Look out stranger there's a dark cloud moving in

But if you could hear
The voice in my heart
It would tell you
I'm afraid I am alone

Won't somebody please
Hold me, release me, show me
The meaning of mercy
Let me loose
fly
Let me fly
Let me fly

Super-paranoid
I'm blending, I'm blurring, I am bleeding
Into the scenery

Loving someone else is always so much easier
But I hold myself hostage in the mirror

But if you could hear the voice in my heart
It would tell you
I'm tired of feeling this way

God won't you please
Hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me loose
fly
Let me fly
Let me fly

And I won't be held down
I won't be held back
I will lead with my faith
The red light has been following me
But don't worry mother
It's no longer my gravity

Hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me fly
Let me fly
Let me fly

5. Joydrop - Beautiful

If I was beautiful like you,
oh the things I would do.
Those not so blessed
would be crying out murder
And I'd just laugh
and get away with it too.
Like you do.

If I was beautiful like you,
I would never be at fault.
I'd walk in the rain between the rain drops
Bringing traffic to a halt.

Chorus:
But that would never be.
No that would never never be.
'Cause I'm not beautiful like you,
I'm beautiful like me.

If I was beautiful like you.
I'd be quick to assume.
They'd do anything to please me, why not?
I see their reaction when you walk into the room.

(Chorus)

If I was beautiful like you,
I'd have so many friends.
All fighting for my time, to be next in line.
So if I hurt one I wouldn�t have to make amends.

(Chorus)

6. Imogen Heap - Getting scared

turn your ugly face
are you so surprised to see me
yeah I was your little childhood playground toy

and if I remember
yeah if I do remember rightly
I said the tables would be turned around boy

who's getting scared now,
tell me, tell me how does it feel
it feels so good from where I'm standing

the only times in my life
the sun was meant to shine for me
you made it pour down, pour down with tears of rain

dug my pride with a knife
encaged by your obsession with me
time for some mental torture and screams of justified pain

so ya gonna chase me now boy
yeah ya gonna corner me now boy
you think ya gonna threaten me now boy
somehow I don't think so!

yeah ya gonna stamp me down now boy
yeah ya gonna crush me down now boy
you think ya gonna threaten me now boy
somehow I don't think so!

who's getting scared now, tell me,
tell me how does it feel
it feels so good from where I'm standing

yeah you're getting scared now, piggy,
go ahead and squeal
it sounds so nice from where I'm standing.

who's getting scared?
who's getting scared now?

7. Paula Cole � Pearl

Humility on Bleecker Street
Exposed my faults until I'm left defeated
It's been three years into this relationship
This is longer than I ever could commit

But I feel I'm near
But I feel my fear

I'm standing at the edge of another precipice in life
Gotta face my steppenwolf
Gotta drag you through the mud
When I get there I will see myself
I will look for strength within
I will be a better woman
Hang in there baby, I'm the grain of sand
Becoming the pearl

There are no role models in rock 'n' roll
No women who could have it all
The long career, the man, the happy family
And here I stand and God I do demand it

And I feel I'm near
But I feel my fear

It's dark in here-
Don't know who I am
Memories come-
I'm wading through the moon
Evil side-
Wants to drag me down
Willpower- God, please give me some
(I'm hanging onto hope now)

I'm standing at the edge of another precipice in life
Baggage from my family
Going back to therapy
I will kneel, be humble, tow the weight
I will look for strength within
I will be a better woman
Hang in there baby, I'm the grain of sand
Becoming the pearl!

8. Poe - Walk the walk

Mother spent ten years sitting by a window
Scared if she spoke she would die of a heart attack
She listened as her dreams silently screamed
They drowned like little dolphins caught in a fishnet

Dear world, i'm pleased to meet you

Hey everybody when you walk the walk
You gotta back it all up you gotta talk the talk
Hey everybody when I hear the knock
Don't wanna measure out my life to the tick of a clock

Hey everybody when my daddy died
He had a sad sad story written in his eyes
Hey everybody when you walk the walk
You cannot measure out your life to the tick of a clock

I wanna walk to the beat of my own drum
I wanna walk to the beat of my own drum

Hey everybody
Can you walk the walk you gotta back it all up
But can you talk the talk
Hey everybody
can you walk the walk?

I wanna walk to the beat of my own drum
(Say what?)
I wanna walk to the beat of my own drum
(Say what?)

I wanna walk to the beat of my own drum
I wanna live to the beat of my own drum
I wanna take to the beat of my own drum
I wanna hang ten, high, say pleased to meet you

Give to the beat of my own drum
I wanna sing to the beat of my own drum

I wanna fly, cry, win, lose, live, die, take five
Pleased to meet you

My daddy spent ten years living on the outside looking in
He thought that he would never get back
Watched his dream walk across a silver screen
And he was standing there when the theatre went pitch black

Dear world, I'm pleased to meet you

Hey everybody when I walk the walk
I gotta back it all up I gotta talk the talk
Hey everybody when I hear the knock
Don't wanna measure out my life to the tick of a clock

Hey everybody--can you walk the walk?

I wanna walk to the beat of my own drum
(Say what?)
I wanna walk to the beat of my own drum
(Say what?)

I wanna live to the beat of my own drum
I wanna laugh to the beat of my own drum
I wanna play to the beat of my own drum
I wanna hang ten, high, say pleased to meet you

I wanna screw up to the beat of my own drum
I wanna take it out of town and do it to my drum
Scream, shout, Wipe out
Make love to my baby

My own drum my own beat

Hey did you ever get the feeling that it's really a joke
You think you've got it figured out and then you find that you don't
So you say goodbye to the world and now you're floating in space
You got no sense of nothing not even a time or a place
Then suddenly you hear it it's the beat of your heart
And for the first time in your life you know your life is about to start (oh yeah, bring it on)

I wanna walk to the beat of my own drum!

9. Sarah McLachlan - Fumbling towards ecstasy

All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
it's my mouth that pushes out this breath

and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love

Companion to our demons
they will dance, and we will play
With chairs, candles, and cloth
making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in or out
upstream or down without a thought

and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love

Peace, in the struggle
to find peace
comfort, on the way
to comfort

and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love...

10. Lisa Loeb - Snow day

It's a bad day.
It's a train ride.
It's a bad day.
You're my medicine..

It's a snow day.
It's a full moon.
It's a snow day.

When'd you get down to my bones?
and where'll I find that wishing stone?
The beads, the records,
all the calls, and the drinks alone. First by mind, then by music
you'll make this all less confusing
It's a slow dive down,
a fast distraction, a strange fall forward-my lame reaction.

It's a bad day.
It's a long ride.
It s a bad day.
You're my medicine..

It's a sinking feeling, pulls me through
the seat of chairs.
When will you come rescue me, find solace, and then take me there?
You'll say, "You re not too tired for this life,
and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice.
You're not too tired for this life,
and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice."

When'd you get down to my bones? and where'll I find that wishing stone?
The beads, the records,
all the calls, and the drinks alone.

It's a bad day.
2 miles to go.
It's a bad day.
You're my medicine..

You'll say, "You're not too tired for this life,
and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice.
You're not too tired for this life,
and it's not gonna matter if you fall down twice."

You're my medicine..
You're my medicine..
You're my medicine..
You're my medicine..

It's a long ride..

11. Fuel � Shimmer

She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label
She says she's ashamed
And can she take me for awhile
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
But maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend

Chorus:
We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her

She says that love is for fools who fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend

(chorus)

It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
Guess I'll let it go

12. Sinead O'Connor - Red Football

I'm not no red football
To be kicked around the garden
No no
I'm a red christmas-tree ball
And I'm fragile
I'm not no animal
Though I am to you
I'm not no crocodile
Like the one in Dublin Zoo
Who lived in a cage the length and breadth of his body
With a window which people could look through
And throw coins on his back to taunt him
'though he couldn't move
Even if he wanted to

I'm not no animal in the zoo
I'm not no whipping boy for you
You may not treat me like you do
I'm not no animal in the zoo
My skin is not a football for you
My head is not a football for you
My body's not a football for you
My womb is not a football for you
My heart is not a football for you
I'm not no animal in the zoo
This animal will jump up and eat you
I'm not no animal in the zoo
And I've every intention
Of leaping up and getting you

13. Kina - Girl from the gutter

For all the things you said I'd never do
For all the things you said that were untrue
For all the times you made me feel low
Said I'd never make it on my own

1 - Things are lookin' up for me now
It seems like karma's makin' its rounds
It's my turn, I won't be held down, no
Karma's gonna visit you too
You gotta pay for the things you put me through
I hope you do, I hope you do

2 - I hope your hell is filled with magazines
And on every page, you see a big picture of me
And under every picture, the caption should read
"Not bad for a girl from the gutter like me"!

For all the times you said "I got yo' back"
For all the times you stabbed me, yeah
For all the times you tried to hurt my pride
For all the pain I held down deep inside

Repeat 1
Repeat 2

Now it don't make me weak
To help you feel stronger
I know you bitches think
I'm somewhere dyin' inside
Oh yeah, "Poor Kina, she went home"
"She couldn't take it no longer"
But I'm right here, I'm right here
I'm right here, hey

Repeat 2
Repeat 2

14. 10,000 Maniacs - Because the night

Take me now baby here as I am
Pull me close, try and understand
Desire is hunger is the fire I breathe
Love is a banquet on which we feed

Come on now try and understand
The way I feel under your command
Take my hand as the sun descends
They can�t hurt you now,
Can�t hurt you now, can�t hurt you now

Because the night belongs to lovers
Because the night belongs to us
Because the night belongs to lovers
Because the night belongs to us

Have I doubt, baby, when I�m alone
Love is a ring, a telephone
Love is an angel disguised as lust
Here in our bed until the morning comes

Come on now try and understand
The way I feel under your command
Take my hand as the sun descends
They can�t hurt you now,
Can�t hurt you now, can�t hurt you now

Because the night belongs to lovers
Because the night belongs to us
Because the night belongs to lovers
Because the night belongs to us

With love we sleep
With doubt the vicious circle
Turns and burns
Without you I cannot live
Forgive, the yearning burning
I believe it�s time to heal to feel
So take me now, take me now, take me now

Because the night belongs to lovers
Because the night belongs to us
Because the night belongs to lovers
And everybody says
It belongs to us

15. Natalie Imbruglia - Left of the middle

End of the third round
As I put the phone down
Chasing the same lines
Over the old ground

I'm pushing zero
Where is my hero
He's out there somewhere
Left of the middle

And your world falls down
And you're there calling out
But it's something I can't say
Though it seems the only way
But its a game that I can't play
Not today

I got my ticket
And I got a straight road
But I'm passing the same signs
Over and over

And my world falls down
And I'm there calling out
But it's something I can't say
Tough it seems the only way
But its a game that I can't play
Not today

And my world falls down
And you're the calling out
But it's something I can't say
Though it seems the only way
But its a game
that I can't play
Not today

I need to tell you
Trying to get through
It's not always easy
Left of the middle

16. K's choice � Believe

Bravely I look further than I see
Knowing things I know I cannot be, not now
I'm so aware of where I am, but I don't know where that is
And there's something right in front of me and I

Touch the fingers of my hand
And I wonder if it's me
Holding on and on to Theories of prosperity
Someone who can promise me
I believe in me

Tomorrow I was nothing, yesterday I'll be
Time has fooled me into thinking it's a part of me
Nothing in this room but empty space
No me, no world, no mind, no face

Touch the fingers of my hand and tell me if it's me
Holding on and on to Love, what else is real
A religion that appeals to me, oh
I believe in me

Can you turn me off for just a second, please
Turn me into something faceless, weightless, mindless, homeless Vacuum state of peace

On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
I believe in me
On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
I believe in me

Wait for me, I'm nothing on my own
I'm willing to go on, but not alone, not now
I'm so aware of everything, but nothing seems for real and
As long as you're in front of me then I'll

I watch the fingers of our hands
And I'm grateful that it's me
Holding on and on and on and on and on and on and on
and on and on and on
I believe in me

I'm willing to go on but not alone, not now
I'm so aware of everything..

17. Jessica Andrews - Who i am

If I live to be a hundred
And never see the seven wonders
That'll be alright
If I don't make it to the big leagues
If I never win a Grammy
I'm gonna be just fine
Cause I know exactly who I am

I, am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know just where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am

So when I make a big mistake
And when I fall flat on my face
I know I'll be alright
Should my tender heart be broken
I will cry those teardrops knowing
I will be just fine
Cause nothing changes who I am

I'm a saint and I'm a sinner
I'm a loser; I'm a winner
I am steady and unstable
I'm young, but I am able

I, am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am

I, am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am That's who I am.

18. Sarah McLachlan - Good enough

Hey your glass is empty
it's a hell of a long way home
why don't you let me take you
it's no good to go alone
I never would have opened up
but you seemed so real to me
after all the bullshit I've heard
it's refreshing not to see
I don't have to pretend
she doesn't expect it from me

Don't tell me I haven't been good to you
don't tell me I have never been there for you
don't tell me why
nothing is good enough

Hey little girl would you like some candy
your momma said that it's OK
The door is open come on outside
no I can't come out today
it's not the wind that cracked your shoulder
and threw you to the ground
who's there that makes you so afraid
you're shaken to the bone
and I don't understand
you deserve so much more than this

So don't tell me why
he's never been good to you
don't tell me why
he's never been there for you
don't you know that why
is simply not good enough

so just let me try
and I will be good to you
just let me try
and I will be there for you
I'll show you why
you're so much more than good enough.

19. Natalie Imbruglia - Come september

Her bones will ache
Her mouth will shake
And as the passion dies
Her magic heart will break

She'll fly to France
'Cause there's no chance
No hope for Cinderella..

Come September

Her violet sky
Will need to cry
'Cause if it doesn't rain
Then everything will die

She needs to heal
She needs to feel
Something more than tender..

Come September..
Everything wrong
Gonna be all right
Come September..

The souls that burn
Will twist and turn and
Find you in the dark
No matter where you run

She's made her mark
But lost her spark
And what she's pushing for
She can't remember..

Everything wrong
Gonna be all right
Come September..

Her eyes surrender..
Her cry, a crying shame

Coming undone, Is she ever gonna feel the same?

She will run
She's gonna drink the sun
Shining just for you
Instead of everyone

And so it goes
She'll stand alone
And try not to remember..

Come September..
Everything wrong
Gonna be all right
Come September..

CD THREE: 1 hour 17 minutes

1. Crowded House - Don't dream it's over

There is freedom within, there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
While you're travelling with me

Chorus:
Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Now I'm towing my car,
there's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the T.V. page

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Now I'm walking again
to the beat of a drum
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only the shadows ahead
barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
Don't ever let them win.

2. Sara Evans - Saints and Angels [Thanks, meg!]

We're only here my baby,
we walk on broken ground.
We lose our way.
We come unwound.

We turn in circles, baby.
We're never satisfied.
We fall from grace,
forget we can fly...

but through all the tears
that we cry
we'll survive....

'Cause when we're torn apart,
shattered and scarred,
love has the grace to save us.
We're just two tarnished hearts,
but in each other's arms
we become saints and angels.

I love your imperfections.
I love your everything,
your broken heart,
your broken wing.

I love you when you hold me.
And when you turn away,
I love you still,
and I'm not afraid,
cause I know you feel the same way and you'll stay...

'Cause when we're torn apart,
shattered and scarred,
love has the grace to save us.
We're just two tarnished hearts,
but in each other's arms,
we become saints and angels.

These feet of clay
(feet of clay)
they will not stray

'Cause when we're torn apart
shattered and scarred,
love has the grace to save us.
Were just two tarnished hearts,
but in each other's arms,
we become saints and angels.

3. Ani DiFranco � Jukebox

In the jukebox of her memory
the list of names flips by and stops
she closes her eyes
and smiles as the record drops

then she drinks herself up and out
of her kitchen chair
and she dances out of time
as slow as she can sway
for as long as she can say
"this dance is mine"..
"this dance is mine"..

her hair bears silent witness
to the passing of time
tattoos like mile markers
map the distance she has come
winning some, losing some
she says, "my sister still calls
every sunday night
after the rates go down
but i still can never manage to say anything right
my whole life blew up
and now it's all coming down"..

she says, "leave me alone
tonight, i just wanna stay home"
she fills the pot with water
and drops in the bone
she says, "i've got a darkness that i have to feed
i've got a sadness
that grows up around me like a weed
and i'm not hurting anymore
i'm just spiraling in"
as she closes her eyes
she hears the song begin again

she appreciates the phone calls
the consoling cards and such
she appreciates all the people
who come by and try to pull her back in touch
then try to hold the lid down tightly
and they try to shake well
but the oil and the water
just want to separate themselves

she drinks herself up and out of her kitchen chair
and she dances out of time
as slow as she can sway
for as long as she can say
"this dance is mine"..
"this dance is mine"..
"this dance is mine".

4. Heather Nova - I'm alive

Your hands were covered in paint
The pillow smothered my cry
You were half charmer half snake
I lived in dreamtime

But I'm alive
I survived you
And the bitter taste
The years I wasted
All the hate is gone
'Cause I'm alive

Some nights I'd sleep in the car
Just to escape you
You drove devotion too far
No-one could save you

But I'm alive
I survived you
And the bitter taste
The years I wasted
All the hate is gone
'Cause I'm alive

I still have visions of you
I still have nights to get through
And when the trust isn't true
I have these visions of you
I have these visions of you

And I'm alive
I survived you
And the bitter taste
The years I wasted
All the hate is gone
'Cause I'm alive
I'm alive

I'm alive
Ride on and fade away
I'm alive
There's nothing more to say
I'm alive
Ride on and fade away
I'm alive
There's nothing more to say
I'm alive
Ride on and fade away
And the bitter taste
The years I wasted
All the hate is gone.

5. Destiny's Child � Survivor

Now that you are out of my life,
I'm so much better
You thought that I'd be weak without ya,
but I'm stronger
You thought that I'd be broke without ya,
but I'm richer
You thought that I'd be sad without ya,
I laugh harder
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya,
now I'm wiser
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya,
but I'm smarter
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya,
but I'm chillin'
You thought I wouldn't sell without ya,
sold 9 million

Thought I couldn't breath without ya,
I'm inhalin'
You thought I couldn't see without ya,
perfect vision
You thought I couldn't last without ya,
but I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without ya,
but I'm livin'
Thought that I would fail without ya,
but I'm on top
Thought that it would be over by now,
but it won't stop
Thought that I would self destruct,
but I'm still here
Even in my years to come,
I'm still gonna be here

I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what)
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what)
I'm a survivor (what), I'm gonna make it (what)
I'm a survivor (what), keep on survivin' (what)
I'm wishin' you the best,
pray that you are blessed
Much success, no stress, and lots of
happiness
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna lie on you or yo family, yo
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna hate on you in the magazine
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna compromise my christianity
(I'm better than that)
You know I'm not gonna diss you on the
internet
('Cause my mama taught me better than that)

After all of the darkness and sadness,
soon comes happiness
If I surround myself with positive things,
I'll gain posterity

6. Imogen Heap � Shine

rain drain my play away
sun gun me down and burn me
nature hates me today
my head distorts reality

madness just moved into my shadow..

shine - I will not cry and I will not die no
shine - I will be there for me
shine - I will not cry and I will be mine
I'll shine - shine

who waltzed me into this
am I now stuck here forever

luck just gave me a kiss
then lashed me down with a leather strap

trying to learn to swim without any water
trying just to begin just when you're in for the slaughter

shine - I will not cry and I will not die no
shine - I will be there for me
shine - I'll be just fine if I stay all mine
I'll shine - shine..