don't hate me for my choice i'm scared don't make me i will in my own time i'm scared

and you think things
that aren't thoughts for me
you think things i don't get

ambivalence; choosing the worlds

i am so disturbing at times i want to be understood; stop bleeding i want.. too much. : : : i need that praise to stay someone worth knowing. attention-seeking, love-hungry, thirsty for you why have things changed so much? : : : maybe what i lost was what was most necessary.

i need her more than ever now and we lost each other out of obstinacy. "i don't care if you hate me, i need your help. i need you, you know so much and i'm slipping." : : : see the pain? : : : see it before your eyes now? see what i have made myself? am i all a lie?
am i her
am her i
i am her.

i would hurt; i would kill myself, but i am weak i have a weak stomach, you see blood floors me. : : : you earth me you are my gravity. i need to remove this makeup so i can be clean can i be clean? why am i scared of the dark there is nothing there, it's all my in head but i am scared. I AM SO SCARED.