D'oh! I so forgot to give credit to Leonard Cohen for lines in "Awake now" taken from "Famous Blue Raincoat". Thanks, man! Hope i'm not sued. *cringe*

-EXPECTANCES-

What do i do?
What do you expect me to do?
I don't know where i am with you
did i ever?

Weaving messages
Poetic speech
beautiful words
I can write all these things
but i only want you to know what i mean

I want to know the beauty behind your eyes
What do you want from me..
Am i waiting for something that won't come?

-AWAKE NOW-

"Thanks
for the trouble you took
from her eyes,
I thought it was there
for good
so i never really tried."

Your good heart
your good soul
you have brought her back
to what she has wanted to be.

And hey
you were right about me
though of course i denied it

take good care of her, please.

-WHO AM I-

Who am i
i feel like i'm trying so hard to find out
and falling flat on my face
another teenage story
of discovery
but i don't know what to look for in myself.

Torn by what i've done and can't undo.

I know who i want to be.
but who am i now?
And what will i become?
Do i want to know?

-GIRL-

Underneath the covers
skin to skin
not even thinking
of what's within

another object
a pretty face
giving of herself
to keep her place

Then discarded
skin beat to blue
as what she thought was love
disappeared too

sitting amongst the rubble
of what used to be her world
she slowly started to piece together
her life
as her own girl.

-RISE TO BREATHE- Part 1

Brisk
blue
changes
loves
falling sparkles
as i rise to breathe
spinning
wonder
callous
jesus
murder
as i fall back to bruise
lies
driven
heat
sex
loss
pick up your pieces.