-5 MINUTES-

Thankyou
for standing alongside me
for giving a damn
when you really didn't have to
i've been in your life
5 minutes
yet it seems like we've been talking much longer.

Thankyou
for understanding
knowing what i mean
under all my frustration
we understood each other.

and Thankyou
for sharing your world of music and poetry with me
for showing me another side of myself
which i've grown to like
let us grow together to chase the dreams.

-DRAG ME DOWN WITH YOU, BABY-

Do i want to remember..
your touch
your hold
as i crumbled beneath your soft fingers
as i let myself dissolve into sobs

how i wanted to be caressed by you
for so long i waited
for so long i was the girl you wanted me to be.

Do i want to remember..
how you comforted me
how i was in your arms

how the picture-perfect situation was too perfect
how shocked i was at your harsh words
that you spat in my face
before you decided to throw me on a rollercoaster
down
down
down to your hell.

-SEE THROUGH THE LIE-

I wish they could grasp it
i wish they could see through my tangled life
(through my confusing ways)
to what's within.

don't you get what's eating me?
eating me from the insides
(until i'm nothing)
torn from the heart out
when i thought i had no tears left..

i wish i could..
i wish i..
i claw at the dirt beneath my feet
i can't get anywhere
can't dig my way to china
though some days..
some days..

i wish i could.

-THESE HANDS-

My fingers
what has happened to my fingers
years of weather
years of wringing hands
and that damn piano.

torn skin around the nails
disjointed thumb
no nails anymore
"she can't care for them".

thin
bony
long entwining
gentle fingers
used to stroke the cheeks
of those who let me touch

those who let me near.

why do you trust me anyway?
why do my hands shake
like they've seen 80 years

these hands
these hands know me

and they're the only ones i've got to play the music in my head.

-LITTLE DEVIL-

I trust what i can't see
what i can't understand
what i don't even think i know

i trust that little voice
who speaks to me in whispers
as it dances around my head
and plays with my thoughts

i trust those feelings of weakness
of dizziness
of pure adrenalin
that i get
that i could live off if i tried

if i tried.

-LOCKED FROM YOUR TOUCH-

Open up my box
like i'm Pandora
as you slash at my breast
with your carving knife

You won't find it in there
my heart's locked in a box now
beating just for my sake.
for once.
My secrets, feelings and dreams are locked in there
and i won't give you the key
not even if you kiss me
stroke me
caress me.

well maybe.
but only you can unlock Pandora's box.
only you, my dear.