These are mainly about how people are always analysing everything i say and do, how i wish things would happen and how a friend hurt me without knowing it.
-ANALYSE THIS-
If you look into my sunken eyes
and climb into my cold pale skin
you'll understand me more.
if you listen to them
if you watch me cry
if you understand my situation
you'll understand me more.
If you get the chance to hold me
if you see me break down over a song
if you know my impatience
you'll understand me more.
When i think of what might have been
when i ponder what might have been
when i realise how much i love you
i understand me more.
-I'M NOT GONNA LEAVE YOU-
Close the door
and close your eyes
the angels are here
and i will hold you
things have stung
the future's dark
it's all too hazy
but listen to my voice
and i will find you
though i'm finding it hard to keep myself from tears
the lump in my throat wants to be a permanent resident
and the breaths i heave don't come
too easily
i'm not gonna leave you.
close the door
and close your eyes
the angels are here
and soon they'll take you
though it's hard
and you are scared
just squeeze my hand
and dream of a brighter life
I'm not gonna leave you.
-DOES THIS MAKE YOUR SKIN CRAWL?-
God i'd love to crawl inside your skin right now
just to see what you're thinking
maybe i'm on your mind. if i'm lucky.
maybe there's some kind of code written into your bloodcells
that i can try to understand..
everything else is sending me into whirlwinds
and i'm losing my strength trying to wade through all these thoughts.
Will it all resolve itself?
I should really go confess all these impure thoughts..
but right now i'm having too much fun.
I know the world's going to keep turning no matter what
(at least some things don't change)
And i open the answer door
to have it slam in my face.
Maybe i should stop asking questions
or maybe i should just stop looking for answers to them.
Cause every time i start to decode your smiles, comments and jokes
i just get annoyed at the whole male species.
-LAST TO KNOW (part I)-
if you hum a little, maybe i can fake it
if you tell me you hate me, i can take it
but don't play with me cause i don't think i can endure it
and if i lost you i'd be the last to know.
-HE-
He's finally seen what's before his eyes
and what i'd be to him
he's still completely selfless
walking only the path that will help his friends;
and worrying himself sick about them.
I feel something is wrong here
i'd love to try and read his eyes
but there's a swelling ocean
that i can't cross just yet.
who can say he's not totally beautiful.
i can't quite describe it.
and all i want to do is keep him happy
and all i want him to be is himself.
beautiful you.
-THE CHANCE-
There are others out there, i know
i've been told a thousand times
but i must confess
i still believe
you'll come around.
Sometimes the loneliness gets to me
and i reach out for those close
but i really wish
the one i get to hold
is you.
I can write a thousand poems
and i can live a hundred years
i can take a thousand pictures
and wipe a friend's thousand tears
i can gaze at a thousand stars
wishing that i had the chance
knowing that she just can't understand..
and you just push me away again.
-COLD-
Despite your insistence
that things all turn out
that isn't exactly mirroring
the feelings i get from you.
Sometimes i feel i don't know you
when there are so many things left to learn
and i sometimes feel like you're pushing me away.
Maybe you are.
i don't wanna make you talk.
Despite really needing you sometimes,
i grant you your space
and i give you your time.
But i wish i knew what was hurting you so deep.
Cause even if i see you everyday,
i miss you.
and even if we speak for hours,
we don't really talk.
let me in?
WOUNDED
Let your thoughts swim.
Bite back.
Tell me how i make you feel
and watch me bite my lip.
I won't let you see how wounded i am.
Good day.
Nice christmas.
Give me some weird sign
and then talk about the weather.
I won't let you see how wounded i am.
Aphrodesia.
Surely misread.
So tucked away into a drawer
Giving you only one candle to light.
I won't let you see how wounded i could be.