Perfection
I've strived for years
for perfection
no luck
not accepted
"try harder".
I've spent years
trying to fit in
become friends with those i admire
clawing desperately at the slippery sides of my glass confinement.
"go away".
i'm too good for them now.
i'm who i want to be.
And self-confidence
and happiness
are still with me.
though sometimes
i get greedy
drool ready to drip from the sides of my mouth
and i tend to forget my inner self
what i'm on the planet for.
each person has their faults
and each person has their gifts
and i know we'll have some delicious fun
if we put ours together.
venus is in its 7th house.
or maybe not.
Such a smile on my face
as i go through the day,
trying hard to conceal
all my pain i've locked away.
My head's spinning in fear
my emotions are run dry
such frustration i feel
when tears of pain i have to cry.
I'm so tired and lost,
and i feel such a fake,
and i'm not sure how much more
of this pain i can take.
Wipe my slate
All my past, all my pain
set me free
to live again.
Take the page
my life's written on
burn it to ashes
till it's black, and gone.
Free this spirit
let me out of my dark
let me sing
like a bird
like a lark
Bend my words
twist them to suit you
but as long as i live
they will never be true.
Trace my path
see the ground i walk
read my mind
talk the way i talk.
When you see me
be warm and kind
leave my mistakes, my regrets behind.
Look at me
with a different eye
don't just assume
i'll keep going on, fine.
Don't mock my silly, current, belief
that i have a good,
kind heart beneath.
Give me your love
be a true friend to me
only then
will this heart of mine
be free.